I was born in Irvington General Hospital. I grew up to the age of thirteen in the city of Newark N.J. I moved to Monmouth County. I guess my addiction started at a very young age of four years old. I remember my Dad giving me sips of his beer. My dad was an Addict also, his choice was alcohol. Even though my dad was in his addiction he was a good dad to me. When I was growing up I lived a very sheltered and protective life, you see I was a very sick little girl suffering from asthma, I can remember when my friends were all outside playing, I would be looking out of my window wishing I could do some of the things and playing like them. I always felt something was missing.
When I moved down to Monmouth County I felt out of place something was not right. So to fit in I would put on the city tough girl look and ways. I chose to befriend the so called cool kids, they were the trouble makers. At fourteen years old I started my first addiction (nicotine). Then alcohol, pills, acid, weed, acid, etc. I loved the way I felt when I got high. I called myself a junk addict a little of everything. In my addiction the drinking and pills were my choice that used over and over again. At nineteen years old I met my first husband, got married, had a baby nine months later.
I continued to use until at age twenty-four, it was really a nightmare with my using. I stopped using, but I never had a program. I considered my self a dry addict. The marriage lasted four years, then I met my second husband who is also an addict, I lived in fear of picking up again because he was using, so I divorced him. I then met someone I used to work with. He drank once in a while but the addict with no recovery in her, thought I would never pick up again. Well, my addiction came out of the dungeon again, I relapsed for six months, it was hell.
I met someone from NA who took me to my first meeting. She was a caring and loving person and I thank her to this day for helping me get to that meeting. I am still here recovering, I took a coffee commitment right away. I have been active in service work now for 11 years. I still go to meetings, have a sponsor, and sponsees. I also have a network. I live (one day at a time), because I don’t know what tomorrow brings. I just want to share without this program and my higher power, I would probably me dead.
thanks for letting me share my story,
Sue,
“I GET HIGH ON LIFE”